Covering the cracks won't make them disappear, I've lost count of the time we've been here...

This is the start to my foray into self reflection mainly at the advice of my therapist. I guess I figured that since I am going to be getting into the field of human services I should handle my own issues first. I felt like I should open this post with lyrics from a song that really describes how I feel about life right now, Gary Go's "Life Gets in the Way".

We talk talk talk
Close but not the same
Putting back the pieces that remain
You said it would be easy
But I can feel the strain
Does everything mean nothing?

I'm back on the scales weighing it up cause
I don't want to be the same anymore
Got to find what I'm here for
But it's so hard to change when life gets in the way yeah

We crash crash crash
With nothing left to burn
We try to turn the tables
We have turned
Covering the cracks
Won't make them disappear
I've lost count of the times that we've been here

What's the way?
Name the price I must pay cause

I don't want to be the same anymore
Got to find what I'm here for
But it's so hard to change when life gets in the way
Yeah
Seems everyone around me has moved on
Where's the spark when the spark has gone?
It's so hard to change when life gets in the way